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Saturday, 15 May 2010

  • circa 11 months

    I AM SO HAPPY.
    We have been great lately. Had one fight to overcome.
    We nit-pick in a healthy way. He pinches me, i poke him, we're crabby. But its so healthy and refreshing.
    I was thinking tonight about how much I love him. I am getting scared now though. We have only been dating for a year. What if we can't last to get married?

    The problem I realized is that I am a planner. I schedule everything. I don't like "going with the flow" so I just have the habit of envisioning things. I just have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that he is the one for me. I am just scared because he wants to go to Med School and I fully support that! I just love him so much. I love being around him. The best part of any relationship (in my mind) is going to bed with that person and waking up in the morning (most likely to his silly alarm) and just sighing relief that its another day and you get to start it with him.

    I'm only 20. Sometimes I wish we met late in life just so we could be ready. I love him with all my heart. I love doing things for him. To see him happy makes me happy.

    R--i love you.

Tuesday, 30 March 2010

  • 9 months happy.

    My boyfriend and I celebrated our 9 months yesterday. It seems like I have been dating longer than that though. We're in that comfortable stage. It's fun. Sometimes I miss the intial romance but all that fades with time. He still acts cute as a button though! I adore him. He's my best friend.

    To the boy that changed me:
    I've been missing you lately. I miss that chase when you wanted me so badly. I've deleted pictures I had of you but every once and awhile I want to look at you. I miss us as a whole. I just have to slap myself sometimes because I know what you did to me. But then I question myself and think maybe you deserved another chance. I really do still care about you. Not enough to ruin what I have now but I just want you to know. I just wish we could be friends. I really do.

    And thats the way I loved you...
    XO

Sunday, 31 January 2010

  • Almost a Year Later

    Dear my once lover,

    Its hard to believe its been a year.  I almost feel like you are dead. Its sad. This time last year I was broken. But here i sit tonight stronger for knowing you. I always said that I lived without regrets. When we broke up I questioned that. Thinking I had wasted 1 1/2 years of my life. But I didn't. I learned to love someone with my entire heart. To not hold back. To love myself. I know you loved me deep down but you sure didn't want to commit.  It took you too long to realize the passion we shared. I know you are with a new girl now and I hope you don't let her get away like you did to me. I miss you sometimes and wonder where we would be if we had made it work. But then I think of the terrible things you did and said about me. And I know that isn't love. My boyfriend now isn't perfect, don't you think that. But he shows me everyday that he cares about me. I learned so much from you. You will be FOREVER AND ALWAYS my first love.

    I wanna look back and remember the good stuff and appreciate what we shared. I hope you do the same.

    To us.

    xo

Tuesday, 29 December 2009

  • happy six months.

    Our anniversary is today. Wish we could have celebrated together (he lives in another state)

    On another note...I've been thinking about my ex recently. Just little things I miss. Is it normal? Please help...


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    When you fall as fast and as
    far as I did, you are no longer
    yourself. You are
    blinded by
    your
    heart. You breathe him
    and
    he's all you see when you
    wake up and lay your head
    down. Then one day,
    he's gone.
    The sky crashes down upon you
    and
    you change again. You run
    to the phone every time it rings,
    expecting him to be there, to tell
    you everything's going to be alright
    and that things can be the same
    as they used to. You and him,
    together, forever. But only a
    dial
    tone replies to your pleas. Oh sure
    ...
    I'll get over you...I'll live again.
    But every time I see you, the
    memories of all the
    wonderful times
    we spent together flash through my
    head and a little piece of me
    dies.

Saturday, 28 November 2009

  • My boyfriend and I are doing really well. Our 5 months is tomorrow. It seems like we've been together for much longer. I know its early to say it but I really hope I marry this boy. I know he's the one. We act like little kids and do the stupidest things.  He laughs at my jokes that are somehow so lame. He's so special!<3

    I was just thinking about my ex earlier. The one that caused me to start this datingish account. I looked at his facebook picture today and it just don't even know who that boy is anymore. It's just sad. I look back on things I've written about him being the love of my life and while he will always be my first love, he's not the last. So girls and guys out there with broken hearts, it happens for a reason. Let it be.

    ****To my ex, who I loved with all my heart: I am happy you have a new girl. Other girls I've heard about I wasn't a fan of. But I can see this girl is different. Heck you actually go to the movies with her! Treat her right, because she gets to have the new and improved you. The one I failed to have for 1 year.

    Take care,
    Me

foreverandalwaysx2

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    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 12/12/2008

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